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Name: Mark Birthday: October 5, 1986 Loves: Music, David (my brother whom i've gotten more close with), Micah, Guitar, Singing, Running, Life, Hailee Marie, Writing, Fears: Failing, Never having lived, Music: The Lyndsay Diaries, Dashboard Confessional, Moneen, A Static Lullaby, Goo Goo Dolls, Everclear, Jack Johnson, Penfold, Joe Satriani, The Early November, Bright Eyes, Stevie Ray Vaughn, Thursday, Cursive, The Appleseed Cast, From Autumn To Ashes, Ben Folds Five, Bright Eyes, Converge, Something Corporate, As I Lay Dying, Avenged Sevenfold, The Bled, The Rocket Summer, Taking Back Sunday, Yellowcard, Saves The Day, Further Seems Forever, Pat Green...SO MUCH MORE! What I Know: That every morning I wake up alone, and it hurts. Also you can check these blogs out and other sites.
David's Blog
Micah's Blog
This Will Be The Last Thing I’ll Want To Write About You
I can’t really even imagine
I can’t see the extreme points
Of heartache
A waltz back in would be too easy
A tango would be a bit smoother
But never the same
No way can I realize
A thousand summers of tears
A thousand winters of sadness
A million trillion lifetimes that I would
Like to give back to you
I can’t really even imagine
I don’t even want to make the attempt
Because no matter how hard
How hard I try
It just wouldn’t be right
The tears I wiped from your eyes
Made me see how much heartache
Lies in side
How much pain is all throughout your insides
I can’t really even imagine
I know in a way that I’ll be the greatest father
Never anything that will harm my son
That came from your womb
Nothing to burst they’re feelings
And make them consume
They’re lives.
Noticing how your mood changes
Just by the title
But someone cannot be in it
Just for a name or a title.
Give someone a title and they’ll take it,
And make it seem like an advantage
But inside the title was shattered.
Let it be denounced that we see you as useless.
I don’t even know you and I hate you already
I would like to take back what you did to them,
But I can’t
I would like to take back their tears
But I fucking can’t!
If I did it wouldn’t even be the same,
The strength they hold
Is so strong.
But even something so strong
Will break in another time.
But I will be there.
I wipe those tears,
I will make a feeble attempt
To give them everything they deserve.
I know that I can’t give them you,
Because you DON’T deserve them.
You want to waltz back in,
You even may try to tango,
But you can’t replace
Those thousand tears lost,
And those meaningless summers that are gone,
I can’t even fucking imagine!
I won’t even try.
I just know that,
From you,
I’ll grow up to be ,
I’ll grow up to be the better guy.
Contact Me
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Sunday, March 28, 2004
Posted at 01:02 pm by TaxiCabRomance
Thursday, March 25, 2004
with one or two i get used to the room
we go slow when we first make our moves
by five or six bring your wheel to the car
number nine with my head on the bar
its sad, but true
out of cash, and i own a gun
we got desperate desires and a night with no plans
my tounge will taste the gin and malicious intent
bring you back to the bar get you out of the cold
a sober straight face gets you out of your clothes
and thier scared, that we know
all the crimes they'll commit
who theyll kiss before they get home
i will lie awake
lie for fun and fake the way i hold you
let you fall for every empty word i say
barely concious in the doorway you stand
your eyes are fighting sleep while your mouth makes you demand
you laugh at every word trying hard to be cute
i almost feel sorry for what im gonna do
and your hair smells of smoke
who will cast the first stone
you can sin or spend the night all alone
brass buttons on your coat harm the cold
in the shape of a heart that they cut outa stone
your using all your looks that youve thrown from the start
if you let me have my way i swear ill tear you apart
cuz its all, you can be, youre a drunk, and your scared
its ladies night, all the girls drink for free
i will lie awake
lie for fun and fake the way i hold you
let you fall for every empty word i say (3x)
Posted at 12:24 pm by TaxiCabRomance
Well yesterday I had a decent day at school. Webmastering just talked online and listened to music. English just read as a class. Calculus just worked in a group. Digital Graphics just did a few things. History just got kicked out in the hall for telling coach he was an idiot and i knew more than him, which is true i do. Then Art just talked to Jenn for a while and wondered the halls. and My Art Aide period and went home and just chilled. Then came back and picked up my brother from school. Well then I went home and cleaned my room because I wanted it all clean, well then my mom got home from work and I went to wal mart with her because I needed to get some CR2 Batteries for my Camera for my photography project that has to be done soon and im' NOWHERE near finishing it for this competition thing on April 5th. Then I got home and my dad was just there with my uncle talking about something and he ordered pizza for us. It was GOOOOD. Well then I went upstairs and talked online for a bit then went downstairs and watched the last 30 minutes of American Idol and then THE OC!. Well the OC was relaly good. I totally agreed with the saying that you hvae to be happy with yourself before you get involved with someone else. And I don't know it was so true. I realize that. And I'm happy haha. Well Yeah things are going just fine in the house. When the parent's get upset and start yelling for no reason. I don't yell back. I just keep a smile on my face and tell them I'm sorry even if it isn't my fault, and they calm down. Then after the OC I went upstairs and got online and wrote some more music. Yes I renamed my solo side acoustic project ONE STARRY ROMANCE. I'm working on a website at the moment. Working on a few songs I've written. I think things will be good. Well this morning I woke up earlier than usual and just woke up in a GREAT mood. Like I was all smiley and stuff. I had a mocha espresso and then took a shower, then got dressed. Well I got online early in the morning and told some people to just have a great day at school and don't let anything get them down. And they were like "woah that made my day, your happy" haha. I've been happy. So yeah. I am listneing to THE LYNDSAY DIARIES....they are so amazing and it makes me happy even though they're really emo. Well peace. : D
Posted at 08:42 am by TaxiCabRomance
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
Lately I've been feeling better. Life is hard and I understand that. I know that you must go on. Yet sometimes you feel the pain is to unbearable to keep pushing. But you've got to. So yeah I read someone's live journal entry the other day and it made me smile. It gave me an outlook that im going to try and reach for. Something I want to be. Somethign that truly lies inside me. Happiness. I love it. I want to be happy for the rest of my life. I know things will begin to break me, but they are only making me stronger. Well I want to thank everyone for being just there. Thank you. I love you all. I really do. I thank you for caring. I love you guys. Without you I'd be nowhere. But thank you. :)
Posted at 12:22 pm by TaxiCabRomance
Sunday, March 21, 2004
i'm like a vase [one of those ugly used ones]
sitting at the edge of the table.
i get closer and closer to the edge
tempted to crash.
closer and closer.
i've finally fallen.
shattered.
i am broken.
lifeless.
i cant get back up.
alone.
i am not asking for a pity plee. i'm just writing.
i've never been this depressed in my life. ever
it seems like the whole world hates me.
or is mad at me.
i seem to fuck up everything.
and i cant handle it.
i am sorry.
i really did try. i tried my best.
but i failed.
but you know what
i'm a fucking failure anyways.
well thats what i've been told.
i've been thinking a lot.
i sit up late in my bed. alone what's new?
you call this a family?
you think i wanna call this home?
i think. and i think a lot.
and then i cry. even more.
i've cried more within the last week that i have in my whole life. COMBINED
Posted at 01:34 pm by TaxiCabRomance
Saturday, March 20, 2004
Ok well Friday during the day I went to Killeen Mall with my mom. Bought some flip flops and a pair of shoes. Then I bought some boardshorts or whatever for the summer. Then I went to lunch with my parent's and my brother. Then they dropped me off. They went to pay off the final $11,000.00 on the house yesterday that they owed. And now my dad is going to be getting a 2004 Dodge 1500 or 2500. Not too sure yet. Well Anyways after they dropped me off I went to the rec to ball with the dudes. Sprained my ankle. It hurts. Well then I went out with Jacob, Sheree and Misti. That wasn't too fun...Then I went to the mall with all them. Saw my little brother. And his g/f, and my ex g/f haha. Well I tapped her on the shoulder and said hello. Then left. Then me, jake, misti, and sheree went out to the lake. I was acting retarded because I just don't give a fuck about what they thought. Then I went to Leslie's and we talked and stuff. I really missed Leslie. She's such an awesome friend. She's alwasy there for me at least when I need her. We've gone through alot of the same things growing up. I know by far, some of mine don't compare to hers. Well we hung out at her house. With Stephanie, and Julia. It was kinda cool. All 3 of them are funny. Julia is funny too, b/c she's a foreign exchange student so it's funny b/c of her ways and stuff. Well when I was leaving I was talking to Arial on the phone again driving home. She is just amazing. Like I don't know, we have SO much in common. On SO many things. Well like it's cool talking to her. She's awesome, and makes me smile and stuff. And I'm just like WOW, all the time. She never stops amazing me. Each day i just open my mouth and say WOW even louder. Yeah Then I got home and she called me again and we talked for a little bit. I was in pain because of my ankle and she did the best she could to make it feel better. It made it feel a bit better. She's so amazing to me. Well I'm getting ready to go to my Great Grandma's B-Day Party, SHE'S ANCIENT!!!! well yeah. And I'm talking to Arial at the moment so i sha'll go. Goodbye! *smiles uncontrolably*
Posted at 11:22 am by TaxiCabRomance
Friday, March 19, 2004
You're Truly an Emo Kid. You go to as many shows
as possible. You wear lots of striped shirts,
sweaters, and cuffed jeans. You cry about how
you don't have a signifigant other. You write
meaningful lyrics or poetry. Cheer up, life
doesn't suck that much.
What Kind of Emo Kid are You?
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Posted at 04:38 am by TaxiCabRomance
You are a EMO kid!!! need a kleenex emo kid? quit crying...u know this
would happen you little whiney depressed teen.
Hardcore rockers don't like you. Indie rockers
and mod kids are oki with oyu as long as you
suck up those tears and stop moping about how
your gf/bf left you...
What type of EMO kid are you?
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Posted at 04:36 am by TaxiCabRomance
Posted at 04:15 am by TaxiCabRomance
Thursday, March 18, 2004
Well today I was bored. Well I ate lunch then went over to Jeff's house and played ball with him and travis. Well then we went to the 7-11 so they could get some slurpees and I got an energy drink. Then travis asked me to stop at French Quarters so he could get a burger and fries and well I stopped. Then went back to Jeff's house and chilled inside. Then we went to the Rec and paid 2 bucks and balled in door. It was cool. Then I dropped them off and came home. Mom made dinner. Then I drove her to do some errands then Jake called me and I went and hung out with him. We then he wanted some cigarrettes so I went in and bought him some because im "18" hah. Well then we went and picked up Sheree because she needed some people to help wrap her brother's house, because tomorrow was his birthday. So we did that childish task. Then dropped her off at home. Well then me and jake drove around bored then Caitlin called. I've neglected to tell ya'll about Caitlin Ray. She's from austin. She's in the scene. And she's really awesome. Last time I went down to Austin we hit it off and have been talking ever since. She's really fucking awesome. And like tonight I talked with her for a bit. And she was laughing at Jake because he's a loser. But she thinks im really cute and really amazing and stuff. I think she's cool. She's an awesome friend. She wants more. But I don't know if i can do that. Because I just can't. I see her as just a friend. She may be really hott, but things aren't like too cool about that. I can't lose her as a friend. Anyways I'm gonna go hang out with her in Austin Sunday. Oh yeah then I got done talking to her or whatever and dropped jake off at home. Jake invited me to go fishing Saturday at his grandma's ranch or whatever. And it's cool by me. If i am allowed to go. Well yeah. I had a decent night out. Peace.
Posted at 11:14 pm by TaxiCabRomance
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